Daily Chaos: Sulking, Rain, and Stitch on Repeat

Today has been non-stop, and I’ll admit it — I’m sulking. I want to be back at work, but instead I’m stuck playing “main parent.” I’ll be fine, but right now I’m moody about it.

This morning kicked off with the breakfast club drop-off, then back home just long enough to take the eldest two to high school. The traffic was bonkers. Was it the rain? Was it all the kids being back to school? Or is it just that I’m usually at work and never have to witness this morning madness? Either way, I hated every second.

By 8:30am I was back home. House clean, washing at the launderette (because apparently no one dares use their tumble dryer anymore and the rain is giving me a headache). By 9:30am every single household job was done.

I thought about having a shower… I really did. But then my bed started calling me like some slow-motion movie scene. Clothes off, TV on, alarm set for 12pm so I wouldn’t miss the nursery pick-up. Next thing I know — the alarm’s going off. Did I need the nap? Absolutely. Do I feel better? Hell no. Now I’m groggy, I’ve got a headache, and it’s still raining.

Collected Zak from nursery. He’s had a great few hours but comes out absolutely shattered. The afternoon was spent with him wrapped up on the sofa, watching Stitch on Disney Plus. Beans on toast for dinner — easy, comforting, and (hopefully) enough to stop him from napping.

And here’s the thing I’ve realised: there is no way I could ever go back to being a stay-at-home mum. I love my kids, I love my home, and I love the life we’ve built — but I’m done with being stuck at home.

Take today for example: I picked Zak up from nursery, and all he wanted was a bottle of chocolate milk, a blanket, and Stitch on repeat. I was in awe of how sweet he looked — but at the same time, I sat there thinking, what the hell am I going to do? I’m bored out of my mind.

So yeah, today’s lesson: I’m not cut out for stay-at-home life. And that’s okay.